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By Colleen Swindoll Thompson
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Lord, here I am again, full of worry—a subject I bring to You over and over again. It’s about what I believe (Your truth and promises) playing tug of war with what I feel (my emotions and fears).
The journey between my head and my heart is the hardest one of them all. I know the truth in my head: You are sovereign and a very present help in time of need. But my heart feels defenceless and invisible. My head knows You are faithful and good, but my heart feels as though You are mean and absent.
I know the truth is that You are just, but I feel what David felt....
How long, O Lord ... How long will You allow the enemy to be victorious?
I know faith is not about my feelings but about what I choose to believe. Tonight, my feelings are pressing in; I need Your comfort, I plead for Your mercy.
You know my heart, how I try to keep trusting You, but I habitually return to controlling the caretaking work by my own strength. It’s impossible. Oh God, it’s such a great conflict for me. I’m afraid. I’m terrified that You will not protect, You will allow more harm; even though I know that isn’t the way of truth.
My request? Lord, have mercy on me and give me Your grace. Pick me up from my emotions and carry me to your truth.
About the Author: Colleen Swindoll Thompson
Colleen Swindoll Thompson